Wow… September has been one big month. Moving to university has been the biggest life change that I have ever had and I am so glad that I started documenting it as my university moving in diary has been my most viewed posts EVER. Like what?! Im so glad that documenting my not so perfect university life in such a raw way has really helped people and your lovely DM’s have clearly shown that. I won’t lie, I did feel very vulnerable posting them and not sticking to my usual very ‘perfect’ portrayal of my life but if the more raw style posts have made just one person feel less alone then I am so glad that I did it. There are still 2 more posts to go as I’m documenting a whole month, so if you have liked them then please stay tuned for some more or if you haven’t read them yet then click for part 1 and part 2.
So my whole blog seems to have been consumed with university content so now that is out of the way I am going to try and make this post feature things that haven’t been touched on in the diary posts (such as from the week before), and just the highlights.
One of the best things to happen to me this month is getting my economics remark back and the grade going up to an A, which is exactly what I wanted and made my final grade profile A*A*AA (which I am so bloody proud of). Don’t get me wrong I was happy on results day but I felt like a lot of the time I was almost pretending to be proud of myself when there was still a little niggle in the back of my mind which was disappointed with my economics grade. Its a very hard thing to talk about because as soon as you do everyone goes ‘but you did fab stop putting yourself down’ but ultimately success is relative and the grade I got in economics the first time round was not what I wanted, especially considering it was the exam I put the most work into. When I got the remark back I just stared at the piece of paper in shock and I can honestly say that I was more excited in that moment than I was on the actual results day, as this time how I was feeling was genuine. The moral of that story is that if you are not satisfied with something try and change it! If I hadn’t had called for a remark I would have still felt deflated about a grade that I didn’t actually get. Question anything you don’t feel 100% with and the worst that can happen is that it comes back at the same grade. I worked my socks off for them grades and I know that I deserved them, so it made me so happy to actually see what I worked so hard towards actually come to fruition.
The weekend before I moved to university we ended up having a big night out with all of my friends, which although was bittersweet because it was the last time that we will all see each other it ended up being a fab night. This was actually my first proper night out in my hometown and will be my last for a while, although I’m sure we will be having plenty more when we all come back for holidays! It was so good to say goodbye to everyone in a nice way, when we were all having fun and having a dance. I have missed everyone already as although we aren’t the closest friendship group in the world we have always had each other backs and its so weird us all being dotted up and down the country until at least Christmas.
I said I wasn’t going to reference it but it obviously is a pretty huge deal so I do feel like I should mention it in this post and that is moving to university. In case you don’t know (because I’m not actually sure I have mentioned it anywhere) I am going to the university of Leeds to study PPE (politics, philosophy and economics). It might not seem like such a big deal to some but I am such a homebird and moving away from home has been a massive life change… I’m still not 100% settled, but I am definitely getting there. I have been a complete emotional mess in September and it has been such an intense environment (I cannot express how many times I have had to introduce myself in the last 2 weeks) so I am hoping that October is a slightly more chilled month. I am so excited about starting the course and I’m looking forward to having a bit of a fresh academic start and having some new academic goals to work towards. I definitely thrive best when I’m busy with a to do list so, after 3 months barely doing anything, I’m looking forward to getting back into the zone.
If you have been reading my other posts you will have probably seen this but I thought to touch on it more here because it was quite a big thing that happened in my month. I met Ruby! Ruby has been reading my blog and interacting with my social media since about 2016 and from that we have made really good friends, apart from the fact that we have never met. She lives in London and I live up north so there has been no chance of us meeting until last week, when she came to York for her university open day. We had a coffee and chatted like we had properly known each other for years and it makes me so excited for when she *potentially* moves up here next year and we can be more ‘proper’ friends. She is 100% on my wavelength with studying and academia, and it is so nice to be able to connect to someone because of my blog. Even if the only thing to ever come out of my blog was a new friend, that makes it so worth it! Ruby has a studying page (her notes are to absolutely die for and give me so much inspiration) so please go over and support her if you can, as she truly is such a kind and hardworking girl. Heres to many more coffee shop afternoons and showing her the sights of the north!
Freshers week was a very intense experience and definitely one of the hardest weeks of my life but I am so glad that I have stuck at university as there were so many points in September where I have genuinely been considering dropping out. I like a party and a drink but quite frankly I can’t think of anything worse than nightclubbing every night for a fortnight so I wasn’t sure how I was going to react to freshers, but I definitely did enjoy the night outs that I went on. Yeah I didn’t do all the events and I didn’t have the best week of my life like some people claim to have, but I did it in my way and I am glad that I didn’t push myself to do all of the nights out. It is a complete whirlwind, my skin is horrendous from wearing heavy makeup in sweaty nightclubs and I don’t think I ever want to see some vodka again but there have been some positive moments from both Leeds and Manchester freshers. I don’t think that it has turned me into a complete party animal but it was a fun experience and I’m glad I did freshers… I spent so long adamant that I wasn’t going to go at all! All I would say is that if you feel like me, you don’t have to go out every night to have a good time. You will make connections in other ways and making friends in a loud nightclub is 10x harder than in a more chilled environment where you can actually talk. Stick at it, don’t fall into the trap of peer pressure and just do what you want to do. I’m so glad now that I didn’t go out all of the time but I know its hard sometimes when you see everyone on social media having the best time. Do what you want to do and it will definitely lead you to more happiness than if you followed the crowd.
I haven’t been to a blog event since July so I was so excited when I was actually invited to two very different, but exciting events within a week of each other. They are like buses! Now that I live in Leeds city centre I am able to say yes to a lot more opportunities that I had to turn down before and I love the amount of opportunities that are now coming my way. The first event that I attended was an event held by conferenceleeds at the Leeds cookery school (click here for the post). This is unlike anything that I have ever done before but it was so much fun and I got to learn a lot of new cooking skills, which are very useful with my move to university! The other event was hosted by The Body shop at their Leeds Briggate store, which is the first event that I have ever attended at that branch but I loved it. The body shop always have a special place in my heart (click here for my body shop event which is nearly a year ago now) but the Love Leeds event was also fab (click here) and I’m looking forward to working with conferenceleeds more in the future. Emily came with me for The body shop event (because she is also a huge fan!) and then we went out to a freshers party after so it was a crazy evening of two extremes, its a weird experience being handed a glass of prosecco at a VIP event to being on a sticky nightclub floor but it was so worth it. Plus I loved doing freshers with someone that I genuinely knew because I felt a lot safer and a lot more comfortable (another top tip if you are struggling with freshers!)
That was a huge post! Didn’t expect I would have this much to write but September has been a pretty huge month looking back. I’m excited for October as not only is it actually my favourite month of the year but I am excited to properly start my course and feel settled again. I just love autumn and I’m looking forward to crisp mornings and cosy evenings, its my favourite! I am not putting much in my diary for October as my focus is to just go with the flow and completely settle into Leeds. Plus getting back into studying and academia is going to be a bit of a challenge as I have had 3 months off and I can definitely feel it! I don’t think I can concentrate on a task for more than 20 minutes when 3 months ago I could focus for 5 hours straight without issue! As always thank you so much for reading this, and for supporting me through everything especially this past month.